Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds! Posting is first Wednesday of every month. Click here for more info.
This is my first time joining the group.
I've known about it for a while but quite honestly I was too insecure to join :-/
Writing has been a dream of mine for as long as I can remember. I started with simple things like songs, I enjoyed playing a lyricist as a kid and even into my early teens. I wrote poems and very short stories. Then I came here from Venezuela and I closed myself off from writing. I am insecure because English is not my first language and I've let that hold me back for a long time.
I should know better than to let fear hold me back. I can be stubborn when I want to be... I came here, went to High School and was placed in the ESL (English as a Second Language) program. I didn't want to be a little "behind" because of language and I refused to accept it. I had my mom get books out for me from the library, and with dictionary in hand, I read them. It took forever but each book took less and less time. Then I upgraded and watched American TV, once again, with dictionary in hand. That took even more time. The first show I landed on was Friends... it will always be close to my heart because of this experience.
Now, I did know a little bit of English because my mom taught me but I didn't know to read or write it. Eight months after I came to NY, I took the placement test that would allow me to get out of the ESL program and take regular classes, I passed. All of the frustration of having to carry an Spanish/English dictionary around paid off. Taking full classes in a foreign language was terrifying and hard but I did it and I even signed up to write for the H.S. Newsletter. I was part of it until I graduated. College was a whole different experience but we don't have time for that.
These days, I find myself looking for inspiration in others and while I'm not tooting my own horn, I forget to look at my own determination from time to time. So here I am jumping feet first and hoping I don't break them. I can't imagine that being fun at all o_0