Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Insecure Writer's Support Group

Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!  Posting is first Wednesday of every month. Click here for more info.



This is my first time joining the group. 
I've known about it for a while but quite honestly I was too insecure to join :-/

Writing has been a dream of mine for as long as I can remember. I started with simple things like songs, I enjoyed playing a lyricist as a kid and even into my early teens. I wrote poems and very short stories. Then I came here from Venezuela and I closed myself off from writing. I am insecure because English is not my first language and I've let that hold me back for a long time.

I should know better than to let fear hold me back. I can be stubborn when I want to be...  I came here, went to High School and was placed in the ESL (English as a Second Language) program. I didn't want to be a little "behind" because of language and I refused to accept it. I had my mom get books out for me from the library, and with dictionary in hand, I read them. It took forever but each book took less and less time. Then I upgraded and watched American TV, once again, with dictionary in hand. That took even more time. The first show I landed on was Friends... it will always be close to my heart because of this experience. 

Now, I did know a little bit of English because my mom taught me but I didn't know to read or write it. Eight months after I came to NY, I took the placement test that would allow me to get out of the ESL program and take regular classes, I passed. All of the frustration of having to carry an Spanish/English dictionary around paid off. Taking full classes in a foreign language was terrifying and hard but I did it and I even signed up to write for the H.S. Newsletter. I was part of it until I graduated. College was a whole different experience but we don't have time for that.

These days, I find myself looking for inspiration in others and while I'm not tooting my own horn, I forget to look at my own determination from time to time. So here I am jumping feet first and hoping I don't break them. I can't imagine that being fun at all o_0

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  1. Wow, it's hard enough for those of us for whom English is our first language. Good for you. I admire you so much. And welcome to the group. It is a wonderful, supportive environment to share our insecurities in.

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    1. I'm loving the group Karen, thanks for the warm welcome ;)

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  2. *waves* Glad to see you join! Respect. Honestly. Getting a 2nd language to the point you can write in it is an amazing feat. I really admire your determination.

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    1. *waves back*

      Thank you for your kind words ;)

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  3. Wow! Your determination is amazing! Like Karen said, English as a first language is confusing enough - what you accomplished is awesome. Don't ever be insecure about being insecure with this group. That's what we're here for. :) Welcome to the IWSG!
    Laura
    Laura Eno – A Shift in Dimensions

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    1. Thanks Laura!
      I think I focused so much on English I might be lacking with my Spanish now lol

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  4. Congratulations on all you've accomplished, Katherine! You've already done more than many people would have managed to achieve. Remind yourself that perseverance is the key to success. You will soon be realizing your dreams.

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    1. Thank you Deanie, with your cheers to remind me to persevere I feel more positive!

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  5. I love your blog header, and your post. And I admire ANYONE who writes in a language that is not their native tongue, so kudos!

    Don't give up. I bet your background will lend a unique flavor to your work.

    Welcome to the group.
    IWSG# 123, until Alex culls the list again. :)

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    1. That Alex... he runs a tight ship lol
      Nice meeting you, Melissa!

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  6. I'm so impressed with your fluency in English, SK, I am totally hopeless when it comes to languages. In all honesty I would never guess that English is not your first language when reading your posts.

    So glad you joined the group, and I had to chuckle about being too insecure to join. :D

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    1. Chuckle, Julie. Chukle! It's true though lol

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  7. I never would've guessed English wasn't your first language. That's a true testimony to your determination to learn it.
    Welcome to the IWSG!

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  8. If you can conquer something like that-- girl, you got this! You can do anything! You clearly are made of determination and guts!

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    1. Ha! I think the naive young me was way more determined than the adult me... but I'll get there. I hope lol

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  9. Welcome to the group. I agree with Alex, I would have never know English wasn't your first language if you had not have told us. This is the perfect place for you to get all those insecurities out in the open. We all have them.

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  10. Wow, that's amazing. I never noticed that English wasn't your first language! The most I can do is the odd word in other languages, English is the only language I'm fluent in.

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    1. Oh now I want to hear those odd words lol

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  11. Welcome to the group and CONGRATULATIONS on busting the language barrier - and smashing it right down to the ground. A huge, admirable accomplishment. I love that you have a special bond with Freinds - my teenaged daughter is addicted to it right now and it's tons of fun watching all the episodes again.

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    1. Ooohh busting and smashing it! I like it lol

      Nice meeting you, Nicki ;)

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  12. Welcome to IWSG. Admire your determination.

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  13. Wow, you seem like a very strong person to me. Courageous! I'm just joining ISWG for the first time this month too. Nice to meet you. :)

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    1. Yay, we are in it together.... glad I'm not alone :)

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  14. Welcome to the group! I think you'll enjoy this monthly tradition! :)

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    1. I am enjoying it a lot already, Lara! woot!

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  15. Hey SK! I admire bi-lingual Americans so much. It's something most of us lack and it's such a shame since the rest of the world speaks multiple languages. I can see how you'd be insecure. It's like whenever I go to a Spanish speaking country I'm super insecure to practice my Espanol. I studied it all thru high school and living in FLA have always been exposed to it. But it's not til after a couple drinks I start speaking it. lol
    I'm sure the more you write, the easier it will become and you'll find a niche you're good at.
    BTW welcome to the group! Glad you joined in!

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    1. Ha! If we ever meet in person at some kind of conference or somewhere like BEA (might as well dream big) I'll try to remember to get you to practice your espanol lol

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  16. Welcome to IWSG! Like other have said, I never would have guessed that English was a second language for you! You'll do great. Starting is half the battle, right? Like you said, just plunge in!

    Kaye Draper at Write Me

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    1. Plunging right it! (too bad I'm not a good swimmer o_0)

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  17. Attitude is a little thing that makes a HUGE difference, and it seems like you're a very determined person :-) I already wonder what types of books you write, but I know it'll be great!

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    1. Thanks for the vote of confidence Jamie :D

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  18. It is so cool to read the journey you took. I can attest to how amazing you are and how far you have come. Keep it up, jumping in can be the most rewarding thing you can do in your life.

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  19. It's great to get another look into who you are, S! And welcome to this wonderful blog hop - I'm glad you decided to join in. You are indeed one of us - insecure with our history, at times about our present, yet hopeful about our future. Writer’s Mark

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  20. Welcome to the group, S. K. Don't let the past define your future - except for the good parts and being bilingual - you never know when those might come in handy. :)

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  21. S.K.!!!! I applaud you, lady! Anybody who can speak two languages is a rockstar! I hear English is a hard second language to learn, so that's super amazing. And just so you know, by reading your blog posts, I'd never guess it isn't your 1st language. :)

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  22. That's an inspiring story, and welcome to IWSG. I agree with Celeste. From reading your blog, I would never guess English was your second language.

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    1. Thanks, Stephanie. I'm glad I joined ;)

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  23. Welcome to IWSG. My good friend Julia moved from Spain to the U.S. and didn't speak a word of English. She bought a Spanish to English electronic translator and we would sit and watch movies and she'd translate and ask questions. She likes to say she learned English because we watched the movie Fright Night over and over :)

    Nabakov wrote on of the most lyrical and affecting novels I've ever read (Lolita) and he wrote it in English rather than his own native language, just to challenge himself.

    You are gonna do great. Thanks for joining!

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    1. Fright Night and Friends... who knew? :P

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  24. Your background is so inspiring, I hope you feel proud of yourself every day for what you've achieved already. There are no limits to what can be achieved if we want it enough.

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    1. I am proud of what I did back then... now? I'm too fearful but I'm trying!

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  25. You're doing a great job, Katherine. No reason to doubt your abilities. You will succeed, without question.

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